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Thursday, August 29, 2013

Wow

I don't know how or why but I'm not questioning it because life has been pretty much amazing lately.  Nothing in particular great has happened.  I just have this all over sense of calm and contentment with the way things are going.

I have a lot of time to think on a normal basis which is REALLY scary. Day to day I'm driving to and from customers.  Yea I see people in 30 minute or so spans.  People call while I drive but there is a bit of downtime.  And I catch my self just thinking.  I think about work, opportunities,families, friends, my husband (a lot), life, my past, etc. In the evenings Jarad works Monday-Thursday and also during the day on Sundays. I have ALOT of Calista time which accounts for Crazy Saturdays when I'm around people or that's what we attribute it to.  Lately I've been thinking about how I feel I'm more positive on a day to day basis.  I've had coworkers notice it.  I think Jarad has noticed it as well as friends....or I hope.   I think some of it has to do with just being more aware of it thanks to a deep convo/misunderstanding/fight with my dear friend, Katrina about a year ago. But I also think it has to do with my weight loss. On a good day I'm down 20lbs from the beginning of the year and when I was overweight I didn't see it as a problem.  However, when your clothes don't fit good, you've got a muffin top, you secretly don't like how you look in the mirror but you put on a good front or so you think, it all dictates your attitude, life and in turn your relationships with people.

I had stopped working out regularly since the middle of June.  I had scaled back to once or twice a week and I could feel the ugly feelings coming back.  I'm back into 4-5 workouts a week and it's a back...that feeling of pride in myself, my husband, my family, my friends, my work and all I've done...my swagger, as some may call it.  

Mental health is a constant process and for now I'm in a good state.  I'm happy and overwhlemed to have such a great husband, family, friends, job and look forward to where this positive attitude can take me.

"It's a helluva start, being able to recognize what makes you happy." - Lucille Ball

5 comments:

  1. Happy that you're happy! That's the key to life, huh??!

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    1. Not the only key but a pretty darn good one. Hap, Hal, happy to quote Duck Dynasty

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    2. Hap, hap, happy....is what I intended

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  2. I've done a few self-evaluations a few times in my lifetime...happiness is definitely a BIG key to a good life! Last week I realized how much not working out has impacted the way I feel as well...it's definitely a game changer in how you react to stress, encounters with other people, etc. So glad you're happy!

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